Sunday, July 31, 2005
They say that all goods must come to an end. It's an interesting quip to analyze when it comes to death. Do we really want to end our dreams, our aspirations,our journey? Some may say it's a viable option if you are struggling, if you are in hardship. I disagree. I believe the suffering and hardships are more lessons than trials for us. It's how we face an end that will determine if it will becoming a beginning for us.
Just returned from a day of activities..woke up at ard 11.30am..and headed straight to Bugis to meet my friends..went to the Ice World again..took photos and ran around like nobody's business..haha..and Sue was like freezing herself to death that she actually requested for 2 coats..haha..damn funny...it was movie time after that..watched The Island..not a bad show..the plot quite interesting...then went Toni Romas for dinner..after that, walked around Suntec and headed straight for my bball match atClementi..won by 14 pts..damn shiok..haha...and here i am, blogging...when i am supposed to be slping..haha..maybe later la..after supper maybe..cus i am damn hungry..woot...but seriously, dont think i am able to sleep tonight, cus later got Chelsea VS AC Milan at 3 am..haha...so see how lor,if i still can be awake by then...
till then, its bye for me..
take care ppl...
oh ya..I officially announce, I had just got myself a mistress(textbooks), a girlfriend(calculator) and a wife(foolscap)..yeah..and i will be sticking to them day my day from now on..haha..
i love you all!!!
11:54 PM
Saturday, July 30, 2005
depression.....notice the operative paranthesis is the word PRESS? its what depression does...it presses us deeper into the muddle, the fog we have in our head. I remember, when I was in Queensland, I was caught on a boat with thick fog surrounding me; it was freaky, it was surreal. I really didn't know what was before me, or behind me, and i became conscious of my fears, my insecurities. Thats what depression does.....it pulls you in. But you have a CHOICE......sail persistantly on your desire to see your destination or be swallowed up....
anw, just returned from airport, super tired now..,anw, managed to meet dayah and Edmund in town late late afternoon...haha...but only for a while, talked with Edmund along the way..he was still the same crappy Edmund..but glad that he is surviving well in army..really happy for him..a funky guy still..haha..
anw, just booked my driving test date...its on the 19th Oct, hopefully all my weeks of secret training and practices will pay off...2 more months..haha..cant wait to get my driving licence..wish me luck ba..yeah...
9:06 PM
ABCDFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ...
haha..where is the E? the E is missing, i am missing my E....haha...but i really do..hey!! haha..life is juz so beautiful now, woot...sometimes, its really glad to know that, we live in the present, not in the history..haha..and i am pretty sure that everything will be smooth sailing now..yeah..when u let go of things in the past, its not that bad after all..
E!!!!!!!!!!!
hectic day for me later...
but guess i will be enjoying myself..haha..life is good..
9:49 AM
Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna knowI don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheelsas
I wish I'd never found you
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on
Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darlingI get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again
3:42 AM
Friday, July 29, 2005
Let's play a game....try rearranging the word 'fear' into as many combinations as you can...ready? let's see.....'ear';'far'...that's it? ear and far.....quite interesting that ear and far are two words we have different reactions too these days....Well, fear isn't far from us...bombs in London, suicide bombers in Palestine, tsunamis in Asia; fear isn't far, its very near and very scary for many of us. What about the word 'ear'? It's what we hear too....there is fear in our words as well. Fear is everywhere. Yes it maybe, but we don't have to have fear...we can choose faith. Faith in our values, faith in our beliefs
8:12 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
I heard a song many years ago that has stuck in my mind....and my heart. "My Place in this World" was a hit for its singer Micheal W Smith, but it asked a very pertinent question tht many people are asking today...where is MY place? In fact, the question today wouldn't so much center on our place, but is there going to to be one, knowing how uncertain life is? I am not God and I can't answer, but I know that what I do today has immense reprecussions on what I do tomorrow. I have learnt to take one day at a time, making each moment significant and relevant for my tomorrows. Relevant. Significant. That you are. Act upon it to make your tomorrow happen!
8:15 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Have you heard about the blocked sink syndrome? It's quite a serious condition-we try to input in but we have blockages that prevent any knowledge gained from getting applied. It results in a slow and painful malady of hardness of heart and cynicism. We see life as a satire, not as a challenge to grow and develop as individuals. It's sad when that happens. How to unclog? Short of calling the plumber, we need to remove the debris that clutter our existence first. We need to apply the rule, prevention is better than cure, resistance only makes us sore!
6:31 PM
its 1am in the morning..Mornings.....what do they signify for us? Some of us dread mornings....we dread the unaccomplished from the previous day that now needs to be completed. We dread the relationships we need to face, the people we don't feel like saying 'hello' to; we dread the morning ritual of meetings, of targets, of........yes I could go on...but..we still wake up don't we? Especially when the sun tickles our eyelids and says "its a new day of life!" Haven't we forgotten? Mornings are testimonies that life is in us....we are......ALIVE!
1:03 AM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Are you a dreamer? I guess, if I were to ask many people to answer, they would probably be a little defensive and think of it as an insult. Dreamers are seen as wasting or idling their time....but are they? I believe it's important to have dreams. Dreaming isn't counterproductive, but inspirational. Shouldn't we all be dreamers? It means we are forward looking, exploring possibilities. That's a productive person. We should encourage dreaming, because it helps us construct our future.....but we also need concrete plans to make that dream happen. So, go ahead and dream, but don't forget to have a plan as well.
6:21 PM
It was amazing. In just one night I had 2 encounters with 2 different cab drivers with different views. The first cab I went in was a lady driver who exclaimed excitedly,"thank you sir for picking my cab!" I was taken aback. Shouldn't I be thanking her instead? She was a Catholic and had just prayed for a passenger and I was an answer to that prayer. It's interesting-I became a catalyst for her faith and I was rewarded with an act of courtesy. The second cab driver was a middle-aged man who was on the verge of divorcing his wife for 22 years. The whole journey was a filled with his anguish, his tale of woe. I felt sorry for him, and I just listened to him. He kept apologising for being so talkative, but I encouraged him. It's important to empty the channel, not build a dam to hold it in. Yes sometimes we flow vgorously, with clear water, and sometimes we get murky with stagnant water. But we can all choose to be channels of blessings, wherever it may be in a cab or on the street. Learn to be sensitive and listen.
4:06 AM
Monday, July 25, 2005
It was a crowded restaurant; people were anxious to get a table as lunch break was only for an hour. It was noisy, it was hot. What got my attention were the waiters and waitresses. They were cool and constantly apologetic. I was impressed with their sensitivity and I think in the midst of the bustle, people were willing to make exceptions. The power of apology. Saying sorry isn't a modern cultural norm-it's a sign of weaknesss to some;it's a sign of defeat to others. Apologies are powerful statements that don't put us down but raises us up to another level. Ther's no need to be apologetic about apologies! Practice it and you will find respect being given to you. Go on....give it a try.....
9:36 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Have you noticed how electricity really (pardon the pun) illuminates our lives? When we assume that it's there and suddenly its taken away from us we begin to panic? Or we really go listless and complain that "there's nothing much we can do?" That's the problem with dependency..we really seem so lost without it, we feel crippled. Think back, when light was a simple candle or a kerosene lamp, that really only filled up a small space that you strained to look into or read a book from. You couldn't take the light for granted could you? You treasured every minute of it's burning wick. Dependency leads us to complacency and also we take the luxury of light for granted...May we never learn to assume; learn to appreciate it while you have it. Allow yourself to be taught and not just be fed....then we can go and spread the light to other places, because we ourselves were enlightened
4:09 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
i thought i could slp well last nite, but i could not..i was anticipating..but sadly, my joy was short-lived, my degree of happiness dropped as time passed by..all the way till now, which i can said, i am feeling despair..yes, i did not slp again..i waited and waited..but the same thing happened again..frankly, i am numb to it already..i dont know wat to do, and i dont know how to do..the only answer to me is juz to wait and wait..when the day comes, juz pray that everything will be normal...i am in no mood to do anything, even slping..cus as i had mentioned..i am totally at a lost, and i am really numb...one min was one thing, then another min, another..i am speechless..but i still love her..she is forever my darling..
9:06 AM
Growing old isn't a pretty sight. Hearing stories about how the old and infirmed suffer to take one step, suffer to close the tap, and other simple tasks. It makes me wonder, why? Why do we have to grow old? Can't we just died when we're just withering? But then I see the determination of these wonderful people, the simplicity of their lives, how each day is seen as a blessing.We take life so liberally; they take live as sacred. We become so complacent, they teach us contentment. I believe there is always a purpose for us in growing old-it's to teach the young how to cope and thrive.
7:51 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
Well, I just returned from a real tiring day of activities…
Had basketball competition in the evening..lasted for abt 3 hrs..had 3 games, we lost the first one, but luckily for us, we won the next two games, and that means, we will be playing in the finals 2 weeks later..haha..cant wait for that..
The game ended abt 7pm..then I headed straight down to Suntec to get my handphone(well, according to dear, its a UNO..haha..)..finally, its been repaired..so stupid of me, I forgot the pin code I set myself..hai..wat a loser..now its like 10.30pm and I am like just finished showering..my whole body is aching now..haha..but guess wat, I like the feeling..and furthermore, to a very very very large extent, I am happy today, cus dear really gave me the motivation to carry out all the activities today..she called last nite..and after the talk, I felt so much better, cus finally, I am hearing her voice, and that the fact the she is enjoying herself very much with the camp also bring joy to me..it was really a good talk last nite, I juz felt so much better..my confidence are back, haha..after so long, I heard her voice again..if not, frankly, I don’t think I can be so motivated to carry on for so long today..haha…this is call the POWER OF LOVE…haha..well, anw, I really want to have a good rest tmr..that is y I am rushing through everything today..i wanted to get all things done by today and sleep like a pig tmr..i had been really sleeping well for the whole of the week, so its time to reward myself with a whole day of sleep today…yeah…
Haha..
I am just so happy..
But seriously, don’t think I can slp tonite, cus, I am really overjoyed..i love u, my darling..u made my day…and Jason, I am sure I am a much more happier person than u are..haha…
1 more day to go..
10:53 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
well, 4 days had past, and only 13mins and 26 secs of talk..frankly, i dont have a good feeling..its sad, but it cant be help..think i have to endure somemore for the next 2 days..but i believe i can make it, and i definitely must make it..its hard,really hard cus like i said yesterday, its like i had been thrown down from heaven to hell, the feeling is disastrous..i am of course worried, well in both ways....and definitely, depressed..but seriously, there is really nothing i can do..all i can do is to wait and wait, and hopefully, the phone call will come..well, i waited for the whole of last nite, i did not slp.yes..i mean it..but sadly, my phone did not ring..well, like i said, i understand wat is going on..dear is really tired with her camp..but i just missed her..i really do, she had already become part of my life, and that is y, i am missing her so so so much..maybe cus its the 2nd time, think i would want to treasure this even more, cus frankly, i am really enjoying myself this time round, MUCH MUCH MUCH more than the previous time..cus me and dear are juz like so close to one another, and we can talk (crap u can call it too..) abt juz everything that we can think of..all the crazy dreams and oversea trips..haha..i am looking forward to them..i am much happier Chen this time round..i dont mind having sleepless nites..as long as my life is still complete.. of coz, that is, with u ard, my dear..
2 more days to go..
9:50 PM
Heroes? Superman? Batman? Wonder Woman? Spidey? They are superheroes, that fill our minds with amazement and wonder. They live in an unrealistic world, a world of fantasy where we can run and escape and hide behind their powers. Maybe we desire to have such power....but there is also a responsibility.I prefer the mum or dad who sits on the bench with their kids, cheering them on during practice, or the dad who sits with his son all night, wiping down a high fever. I prefer a teacher who never thinks twice to stop and listen to a child's problem, or help a student understand their math or science. Or how about the little girl next door who baked cookies for the maid because it was her birthday? These are my real heroes..........they sacrificed, they gave their heart, they wore their heart on their sleeves.....may we all aspire to be heroes like that........ya?
7:05 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
everyday, i would look forward to 11pm..that has always been the happiest moment of my life..but not so recently..i really missed those days..now, i dont even know when my phone will ring..but, i am juz looking forward to it...i juz dont understand, y is it always like this? last time was orientation, now its another orientation...hai..i really have no idea, y muz they always snatch away my happiness when i am starting to enjoy it...sianz...
11:15 PM
Was browsing through the calendar and to my astonishment..it already is in the middle of July, and it means I have made it this far.....and of course another 3 months to go. I guess perspectives are like that aren't they? We can choose to see it as "I've made it this far" or drearily think, "What! so much left?!" Perspectives affect our destination, our performance and most importantly, our attitudes. Let's use what we have accomplished, what we have been challenged with as stepping stones, as challenges that push us further, as we claim the promise of a future for ourselves...
3 more days to go..
as usual..i had been checking my handphone..but still, the result is the same..
sigh...
juz hope it will end asap, cus i am both worried and scared..really..
7:26 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Tuesday blues.......no work.........no datelines....but you are already thinking about what to do tomorrow aren't you? Whatever happened to letting TODAY finish first? Why do we get so impatient with ourselves? Let's savour the day, cherish the moments with our families, and enjoy the time tucked away in our own seclusion. It's ok....PEACE
got initial D original soundtrack in the bag..
4 more days to go..
had been chekcing my phone constantly..hoping that the call will come..
7:45 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
Ladies and Gentlemen, below is a list of things u can do while u were in a life..
1.Move a desk into the lift, wear a suit and sit at the desk, when the doors open, smile and say, Good morning, do u have an appointment?
2.Say "Ding" at every floor..
3. Use your phone camera to snap everyone who comes in and say,"its for my blog.."
4. Approach everyone inside and ask whether if they have got life insurance.
5. Make farting noises..Then glare at someone and go,' eeee......."
6 Dress up like that devil. when ppl get in, smile and ask, "going down?"
7. Bring an empty bag into the lift. Open it a little, and whisper into it,"got enough air in there?"
haha..i am juz so bored..haha..
10:39 PM
wow!! it has been 2 weeks since i last blog..well, to be frank, nothing much exciting really happened for the past 2 weeks, maybe that is y i never bother to log in to my blog and start writing things down..
well, juz some updates on wat had happened..
Johnson's prob, solved..
Received some congrats sms from my bro, mw..(which is so unlikely..mw, u shd noe y..haha..)
Two best friends unite, back to normal, another good news..
Shell shocked with wat happened for the NKF donations..i seriously, think these ppl are idiots and morons...they are obviously cheating ppl's money and kind hearts..useless bunch of freaks...
Contacted a friend who i never contacted for so long..
Solved my misunderstand with another of my closest friend.
Went to NTU hostel
Ate Seoul Garden
Dear going to a 1-week camp
Watched 'Saw" for the sixth time..
Lost weight but then gained back again..
well, basically that was wat i had been doing for the past 2 weeks, of coz, there were much more happier moments and memories which are hard for me to write down in words..haha..but i definitely treasure them.yeah...
anw, bought Initial D booklet..in fact, i also dont know wat is it abt,cus havent opened it..haha..but its initial D, so who cares? haha..yeah..
really hoping i am able to get the "Linkin Park Live In Texas DVD" soon..haha..
anw, Shaun Wright Philips had finally signed for Chelsea, and i am sure Essien is sure to follow, and that would have completed Chelsea's squad..go go the mighty blues..haha..
10:07 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
well, the highly anticipated decision had finally been revealed..London will be hosting the 2012 summer Olympics...well, i am happy cus i had always wanted London to win, frankly, i had no reason for supporting London, but i juz want them to win..haha..maybe cus of Beckham? Or Chelsea? haha..anw, talked abt Chelsea, Steven Gerrard had once again played the mind games..he had decided to stay with Liverpool once again, just after hours when he had made it clear that he wanted to leave..honestly, i am disappointed, not only that such a good player is not coming to Chelsea, but also at Gerrard's personality..though he has good football skills, but who on earth is he to play with the feelings of the fans..fans are the 12th man for the team, and how could he played with the fans' feelings..i really despised him for that..we shall see how things go..
anw, i had quite an enjoyable day..cus of the a group of taiwaness visitors...they are so young and cute..and very naive and innocent too..talking to them was of real fun..great moments..how i wish i could encounter more of these..haha..i am beginning to enjoy my life more..more and more each day..this is the way it shd be, isnt it? i am a very satisfied person now..cus, i believe i have had most of the things i wanted in my life..esp the double-chin that i treasure so much..think that will make up 90% of the reason why am i feeling so satisfied now..haha..i am really contented with wat i have, i would not ask for me..juz let it be how it is now..then i would be more than happy..
p.s
to who ever is receiving 200 dollars tmr, pls remembered that though its not alot, but still, a bit here and a bit there, i am sure it will snowball into a huge sum..so treasure the 200!!! at most if it really has to be spent, then i think it can be spent on doing some facials so that the PIMPLESsssssss will not get so obvious.., or maybe to remove the FATSsssssssssssss that had been making up most of the body weight, esp in the face area..or even, can go for a plastic surgery that will make u look not that UGLYyyyyyyyy....i believe if the money are spent on these 3 areas, then i think it would be money well spent..yeah..
10:12 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
poor johnson.
10:48 PM
perfect couple!!
10:48 PM
he is juz so handsome!!!
10:48 PM
Steven Gerrard is leaving Liverpool..well, this is definitely good news, and I certainly hope that he will come to Chelsea..haha..anw, recently, there are ppl who had criticised Chelsea for using money to buy their way through and claiming that they are not a great club, well, I have to say, who in their right mind would say Chelsea FC is not a "Great Club". Not only does the Stamford Bridge outfit boast 2 of the most talented players in the globe with the likes of Terry, a captain that bleeds the colour blue and Lampard, who's passion for the London clubs crest is met with a kiss upon hitting the back of the net (last season a whopping total of 18 times for a midfielder!), they possess Mourinho, questionably the world’s best manager (Capello his only contender), not mentioning world class players wanted in every squad such as Makelele, Robben, Cech (worlds best GK last season), Duff & squad players such as J.Cole (finding his best form that made him known as a kid at West Ham to be England’s best prospect since their glory days), “Willy” Gallas (always a consistent performer), Carvalho, Cudicini (the EPL’s 2nd best GK after Cech). With the club now improving upon their already class managerial structure with the likes of Frank Arnesen, the future of the footballing world sorry to inform all you non- Chelsea supporters is looking BLUE! With the introduction of new sponsors, this season with Samsung replacing Emirates and next season Adidas taking over Umbro can only improve the clubs world fan base that has already grown over 300% to 20 million (Aust. entire population) in the last year. The tradition and history that Chelsea does lack will only be made up in the bright looking future as all these necessary ingredients needed for success are mixed, not mentioning what has already been achieved (nearly all the EPL records broken) in such a short period of time. Class players such as Veron and Crespo unfortunately could not play nor adapt to the English style and when loaned out only performed as they should of- with great success. Although with Parker, I was sad to bid farewell to, he craved and needed first team football to improve his World Cup chances for the England squad and with the mutual acknowledgement of the two parties (Chelsea and the player) he left. The 05/06 season being the club’s centenary year will be another joyous occasion as with the new re-enforcements Del Horno (a good solid performer) and other possibilities (Gerrard’s looking good, and Essien a real possibility as he stated that he would love to go to a “Great Club” like Chelsea as it boasts Makelele and Lampard his two positional idols that he could learn a lot from). The fact that the club has so far failed to lure a World-class striker (no offence to Drogba) I’m sure will not affect their ambition to be English champions for the 3rd time and European Champions for the 1st. This problem will be fixed in the near future as Roman has called his close friend and FIFA super-agent Pini Zahavi to help in their search to lure the one of the worlds best to Chelsea FC.
10:42 PM
in short, i conclude..when u are thirsty, go to tian po jewellery shop in westmall and i am sure u will get ur drinks...
1:54 AM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
well, today can said to be quite a boring day..woke up at ard 7..went running..breakfast at Mac with Mum...then went to Raffles City And CityLink with Mum, as she wants to buy jewellery..sianz...so as usual, i became the "maid"..followed her..nothing appealed to me..but in the end, bought a watch..forced by mother..cus she claimed that it was time for me to change a watch...hai..really dont know wat is on her mind, maybe she is trying to compensate me of the time i spent with her..haha..anw, nothing interesting..went home, played bball..then dinner...ya..another Sunday is gone..hai..wat a day..time really flies..
11:42 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
war of the worlds is a fantastic movie..handsome guy, good plot..worth the bucks..
but the ending was quite abrupt..but on the whole it was a good movie..go spend ur money on it ba..
11:45 PM
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