Wednesday, June 30, 2004
went back to JJ to take my certificate..
saw Bear and Andy...
Andy, forever joking...
Bear, forever cheerful..
then went to JP for lunch..
Long John Silver is forever occupied with ppl..have no choice but to settle at KFC...
met lots of people too..
Johnson, weide and weisheng..
wow lau..
it really has been a long time since i last met them..
and the most surprisingly of all,
i saw Desmond Lau......
my long lost Chinese High friend...
he look much taller and tanner..
in short, he just looked so much different...
what a day!!!
now eating my Ruffles and drinking my Snapple...
think i am growing fat liao...
i had been doing this for the past 5 days....
Oh no...
i sense danger...
kk..
that is all for now...
its time for mugging...
see ya..
alarm clock set at 2.35am, for the match...
8:51 PM
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
i was living in total darkness for the past half an hour..
cus my house got black out..
in fact, the whole area got it..
and most parts of singapore, i believe...cus i receive few sms from friends regarding abt blackout..heee...
but thumbs up for the SCDF ppl...they are so efficient..
i was still enjoying the romantic atmosphere of sitting in front of the desk with
a burning candle,
then..the lights went on again....
hai..
anw...it was a great experience...so exciting..
hearing children shouting...haha...
interesting way to end the day...
go sleep liao..
11:07 PM
Saturday, June 26, 2004
LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
12:02 AM
Friday, June 25, 2004
24th june 2004,
it was definitely one of the greatest day of the year...
rosz, silvest, jason and myself headed straight down to sentosa early in the morning...!!!
we were ready for a great day..
breakfast at Mac at Harbourfront..then headed for Palawan beach...
then it was partying time..
soccer, rubgy, volleyball, chips, cards, music, crapping,drinks, digging tunnels, sand castle building......
everything that we could think of..we did..
it was indeed of great fun...
"look what you have done, you made a fool of everyone.." silvest, remembered this? haha..
dinner was at food court at harbourfront, again, we crapped...and only after that we realised that we had finished 12 cups of drinks and 3 mugs of watermelon juice..guessed we really needed it cus we really crapped and crapped non-stop...
it was really a memorable day and yes, definitely, an OLE! day...
1:07 PM
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
i told myself to forgive and forget..
but you are just such a disappointment..
i really din know you would do such a thing..
where is ur moral value? where is ur dignity?
frankly, other than Khoo Puay Cheng, i never hated someone so much before..
you know very well what you had done..
i never expected you to do such a thing...
now disappear..
10:06 PM
Monday, June 21, 2004
a week has past...and i just cant seemed to get it out of my mind...
i wanted to..but guess it will take time..
although as much as i would like to develope the hatred within me,
but i just cant seem to do it,
the beautiful memories keep flashing through my mind...
why am i bringing such misery to myself when the other party isnt appreciating what i had done at all??
why am i being so foolish?
i really have no idea...
but sooner or later, i guess i will have to pull myself out of this shit, although, frankly, deep down in my heart, i still hope for some miracles to happen...
now i totally understand why ppl said, when you are down, you are down, supposed to meet my friend for some chit-chatting session, but the venue?
hai..Plaza Singapura...
the place where we first went, well, as lovers..
all the memorise just kept flashing back, and on my way back, the stupid taxi driver just have to drive past so many places where i spent my memoriable moments with her..
i just felt numb...and totally helpless...
hai......
life is like a vacuum cleaner..it SUCKS...
11:50 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2004
why? up till this stage, you still think that everything is my fault??
havent you self-reflect and recollected the things that you had done?
you know how i treated you, and you know how you treated me..
why is it that you are pushing all the responsiblities to me??
what had i done to deserve all these??
dont you think that you have a part to play??
isnt is unfair for you to be thinking in such a manner??
have you ever ever spared a thought for me?
frankly, i am disappointed, utterly disappointed...
after all these things i had done, and this is what i get..
well, guess i cant blame anyone but myself,
i had place so much trust in you, yet this is how you repaid me..
loss for words..
12:03 AM
Friday, June 18, 2004
当世界只剩下这床头灯 你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身 无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分 如果渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞 wo
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 wo
无尽等待像独白的难挨 wo
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
我受了伤在偷偷好起来 但你不在 不在
时间再按下许多次快门 沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨 孤单一人份 你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温 怎样认真也不一定成真
你说的对 我不得不承认 wo
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 wo
无尽等待像独白的难挨 wo
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 wo
我受了伤再偷偷好起来 但你不在 wo
Bridge 那些摇摆 我都明白 都明白
但你不在 爱已不在 不在
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 wo
一个人分饰两角的恋爱 wo
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在 wo
像空气般不存在 再没有痕迹的爱
你不在 当我需要你的爱 你不在
11:33 PM
Suddenly she's leaving
Suddenly the promise
Of love has gone
Suddenly breathing seems
So hard to do
Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you
Like I do?
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have
To be untrue?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you
Like I do?
Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the
Whole world
I'm fine
I'm gonna keep
My senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you
Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you
Like I do?
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have
To be untrue?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you
Like I do?
Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your
Smiling face oh no
I can think of
Nothing else but you
Suddenly
Why do I love you?
Don't even want to
Why do I love you
Like I do?
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have
To be untrue?
(Love you like I do)
Why do I love you
Like I do?
10:59 PM
the past week was indeed terrible,i can say, it was the worst of my life...
why must things turn out like this?? i really have no idea...
guess its fate, its destiny and its my life...
had a thorough thought the whole of last week,
frankly, it will be hard for me to forgive and forget what had happened, but guess i had no choice,
well, its time to pick myself up and let everything to begin afresh and new again..
life begins today..
thank you: jessica, bao yue, mingwei and ian..
thank you so much..
thank you for your support when i am down..
i am really grateful, esp mingwei, i thank you so much, really appreciated what you had done for me, always there for me, you are just so wonderful, thanks for waking me up, leading me to what i am supposed to do, thank you so much..
bao yue, thank you for the time on the phone and the chat..it really was of great help..
jessica, thx for helping me taking care of her, and thx for your encouragement,
Ian, thx for leading me to the right path, giving me suggestions and your jokes of course, they really help cheering me up..
just thank you so much ppl..
i owe my life to you...
10:45 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Everytime you cross my mind tu saves que malito
I remember when we used to chat everything under the sun,
It's hard to believe that was back in the past
I remember those times like it was yesterday
I knew if I was there and you were here it'd be the same way
We never thought'd we'd go through anything like this
Now we sit back and pray and say Rest In Peace
All the homies got your name tatted behind their neck
Some on their chest and back, arm just to show respect
You're always on our mind everyday and every night
Every night we pray and think about you
It's hard to accept that you had to go
I sit back and drift and remenice of you
Your kids are growing up and they ask about you
They say they miss daddy but I guess you know
We say you're in the skies looking down at them
They stare at one another like they don't understand
I close my eyes and I can hear you real clear
Rest In Peace in the heavens up above
Those you left behind from us got nothing but love
Mr.Ho that's how it is, you're being missed
We used to share in the days when you were here with us
I know we'll see each other cuz we'll be there some day
Rest In Peace Mr. Ho, for you we all pray
8:59 PM
Attended Mr.Ho's wake today, it was really sad....
The moment i saw his picture, i just broke down totally, really, i was still shell-shocked..
I was stunned for words, i did not say anything for quite a while.
It was just like yesterday that i was with him in Chinese High, cracking jokes and having fun with him, but now, he is gone....
He really is a nice teacher, a great one i should say, he is always there when I needed help, always so cheerful and considerate, he really is the perfect model for teachers..
Had a chat with his sister and his wife, they both were extremely depressed, after all, losing one's love is really hard to take, and his wife, wei lao shi, really slim down a lot, this is really depression, I really felt pitiful for her, she still has 2 children to look after, and life ahead is indeed tough..
The most saddening part was when i saw her daughter, she seemed joyful, as though nothing had happened, cus she is only six years old, and she thought it was only a temporary separation with his father...How is she going to take it as she grows up, how would she react when she finally realises that she had lost her father permanently, I dont know, but i know it will be a great blow to her, just hope that she can survive the storm and be a stronger person...
Mr.Ho, you had left us, leaving behind only the good memories, but rest assure that we will remember for the rest of our lives, imagine you being the forever cheerful teacher, and the most beloved teacher of all...
Rest In Peace.
8:44 PM
Thursday, June 03, 2004
i have decided....
its a hard decision though..
i have thought abt it the whole day...
and finally...
i have decided...
but i can proudly say,
i have already done my best,
i have already done whatever i can to save this,
but still,
think nothing is being appreciated..
its all over..
8:35 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Had a good chat with I.P. yesterday, really, he really brightens up my day, he is just so understanding and considerate, he really is a God's gift to me...think i am really going to treasure him...
Thank God, for showering me with such wonderful friends,
To I.P. : Keep up with your work, must have faith in urself, you will pull it through, dont give up..
To K.B.Y.T.M : Dont worry about the matter now, just relax and concentrate on your studies, things will run smoothly eventually..Remember, there is always a solution to every problem. Always look on the bright side of life..
11:32 PM
Life is full of ups and downs...
Its not the ups and downs that will determine our lives...
Its how we approach these obstacles that will path our future..
Our future lies in our very own hands...
No one can help us if we ourselves fail to take action...
Humans are equal, well, in terms of humanity, at least..
Its how we are effected by the external disturbance...
So,its time to decide for our future,
Its time that we do something that determines our path..
Be it successful or failure,
As long as deep down in our hearts..
Our conscious is clear,
And that we have tried our best in whatever we do,
There will be no regrets...
12:04 PM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
finished 2 dvds today...Torque and School Of Rock..
average shows...
ranieri is gone.....
who is next?
12:58 AM
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