Sunday, October 31, 2004
woke up!! and again..i dont know why..just had this feeling of letting myself out..haha..think i really figure out wat i want le..haha..
Types of ppl i hate..
I hate people who
- do things i.e. drugs, sex, etc. to be cool. They think if they do it they're cool and will be accepted, or they may do it to forget about their problems. Well, let me tell you.. that's going to become a problem!
- I hate people who are stuck up bitches.
- I hate people who are hypocrites.
- I hate people who are assholes.
- I hate people who try too hard to please people. Why do you care about what people think?!
- I hate people who backstab. If you have something to say, say it to my face biatch!
- I hate people who put words in my mouth and then argue with me that that was what i said.
- I hate people who do not respect people as human beings.
- I hate people who are bastos.
- I hate people who are sobrang corny.
anw, if your head was screwed on right, you could probably make the assumption that I hate a great deal of people. haha..wat a day to start the morning..woot..
6:04 AM
Sometimes I feel like Im kidding myself...or not being completley true to myself. I dont know how to explain this, but all I know is that something in me just doesnt quite feel right, and I think its the "end" of all this searching for myself. Like it will tie everything together, and make me...Me.
I need a car, desperately..i want it now!! haha. so that i can drive ard to watever place i want to go..challenge ppl and the feeling of overtaking is simply sensational!! woot!!!
An extra hour of sleep tonight, but knowing me I'll go to
bed an extra hour later and it wont matter. Why do I feel like something just isnt quite right...?But life feels so good.
3:18 AM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
well, its just a day that is meant for me to blog!!!
what else can a say to sum up a wonderful day..
Initial D in the day, then now, just b4 midnight, haha..another good news..
with Chelsea easily finishing the the hopeless W.B.A off with a 4-1 scoreline, and the arrogant Arsenal drawing at home to Southampton, Chelses is now level on points with the gunners..
yeah..gunners, here we come..
haha..
the Mighty Blues..
Chelsea..
blue is the colour!!
11:58 PM
had been enduring a hectic 2-week, finally the A level's practicals are over, it was a good experience anyway..yeah..seeing friends who were once sch mates, but now, though taking the same paper, but under a totally different circumstance...
i dont know why i decided to write on this blog again, i really dont know, maybe i just feel the urge to do so, but i really dont know..haha..crap..
haha..anw,the real reason was that i was reading some article on globalisation, as pronouced by Bush..hai..that guy is really a freak..cus, simply, he freaks me out..haha..
well, to be, the world is actually being turned into a seamless home by globalisation. real globalisation means that the teeming poor of the developing world wil fall further back as the rich of the developed world become richer, ppl will have more poverty, more disease and etc..and in both worlds, rich and poor, communities will collapse as the economic solidarities which hold them together are broken on the anvil of the new economy. the hand of the economics will be subjected no longer to the will of citizens and their elected eladers, but wil be accountable only to a supranational minority and its mobile capital. Jobs, careers and cultures will disappear as the world is flattened into a single global market..and worse, golbalistaion lies the threat of capitalism. Unlike a play, capitalism writes itself even as it is enacted. There is no denouement. The actors and the audiences change, but the show goes on..and after all these crap that is going on, who is going to benefit? yes, u bet..the Americans..so which wil be the truth. the nightmare that i am metioning above or the vision as described by Bush, who is trying to win the election by coming with this stupid idea of global village..the world should be a single village, not a global village!!! so, Bush, pls..get a life...
8:57 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
- to the guy who went into Mac at 5.30pm, when outside was pouring like cats and dogs, i salute u for wearing a shade,..maybe u can wear a black suit next time cus that will make u look even more like Keanu Reeves, perhaps more handsome, who knows..
- to the bunch of councilors from whichever JC you are from, i respect u ppl for making such a din at Mac, i applaud u ppl for making Mac as if its ur home, talking and laughing with a decibel of more than 1000000000000000000...........what thoughtful ppl u all have been and thank you for letting me have my meal at ur Mac.
- to the ah beng who went out and brought in outside food to consume in Mac intentionally after being told that he must buy something in Mac in order to stay there due to peak hours, hands up to u for being rebellious, i love the way u eat ur fishballs..and i love the way u ignored the Mac man who stared at u, but dont dare to do anything ..blamed it on that Mac man, blamed it on him for not arguing with u..think u shd try doing that do another ah beng next time, cus i am sure u will get wat u want eventually, a street fight..
- to the 3 lians who were smoking like a chimney, i praise u for the way u let the smoke out from both ur mouth and nose..i bet if u had mastered the skill, i will soon see smoke coming out from ur ears..smoke more, for that u will longer, for that u will have a healthier lung..
- to the uncle who took off ur slippers and placed ur fragrant foot on the bus seat, i honour u for being so considerate..perhaps u can try 2 feet next time...cus that will make u a more civilised and educated person..
- to the 2 guys in the Civil Defence vehicle, i value ur responsibility in stopping ur car by the roadside upon seeing a girl and whistled at her..wat a chivalrous act..maybe u can try doing that again while driving a fire-engine next time, cus it will be a more gallant act when u failed to arrive at the scene of fire on time, resulting in deaths..
i love today, cus i suddenly realised that i had so many ppl to look upon and respect..i sincerely thx these ppl for brightening my day..
thank you..
9:17 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
rx-8!!!!
10:04 PM
!hail this!
10:04 PM
cool man...
10:02 PM
wanted to study at CC today with mw only to realise that i had lost my card!! holy shit!!! this is bad..i searched everywhere but just could not find it..hai..sianz..
lucky my hse was nearby, haha..so ended up studying at my house..not bad not bad..it was only till today that i found out that my hse is actually not a bad environment to study..haha..mw, u better agree on that..haha...
as usual, the time spent was abt crapping and eating..haha..and also, not forgetting the music that had accompanied through us..haha..Ah Du, clay aiken, JJ, Calling, koreans..lots more..haha..then it was PS2 time..haha..
then it was Singapore Idol time..haa...yeah..finally..Jerry is out..i am just so happy..
when his name was announced..haha..the whole crowd was cheering..finally..justice is done..3 cheers...haha...
anw, tmr is initial D time..must must..i cant wait liao..i miss the steering wheel, i miss the brakes and i miss the driving seat..haha...
9:31 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
suddenly had this craving for Christmas songs..i also dont know why..
haha..
they are just so wonderful songs...
esp Santa Claus Is Coming to town..just such a fantastic song..
heee.
anw..watched the presidential debate this morning..think Bush is going to lose..
Kerry is so cool and calm...though he looks like a horse, but i still think he will win and i certainly do hope he will win..haha.....lame..
then went to westmall to meet mw..played arcade for a while..
think he got so pissed today..cus he seemed to be losing to me in watever game he played..esp that studid rally..haha...i got few words for ya..."bro, if u want to win..try harder, try a lot harder"..haha...joking joking..
anw, one thing i have to say..really..mw, really, i really thank this guy for all the help he had given me and all those encouragements...
i really owe him lots..
and i promised tonite's talk abt that person will be the last with him...i will not ever mention that person's name again.. i swear..cus its not worth it..my brain has better things to think of..haha..
enjoying Christmas Songs now..
11:25 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
think its time to bring some feng shui master to my hse to see what is wrong with the hse liao..or is it just me?? haha..after losing my contact lenses yesterday, today..i dropped my phone into the basin!!!! wat rotten luck..the whole phone was "drowned" for abt 3 secs b4 i rescued it..i tried everything, swing it in the air to let the water out, and used hair dryer to blow it dry..but it was mission impossible..the phone is as good as gone..the speaker failed..i cant hear a single thing from the phone.. the number pad is insensitive..the lights are gone..sianz..my phone is gone!!!! think really have to send it for repair liao...hope they can save my phone..but at least, i am lucky that Dad returned today, so i am able to have a back up phone..if not i really dont know how am i going to survive..i can live without food and water for one day, but definitely not handphone..haha..sounds exaggerating? but i am really serious abt it..hai..
anw the greatest thing i had accimplished today was done 3 minutes ago....i am not saying that i am a great person, but i believe what this person had done to me is really too much...to be frank, i really could not believe my ears and eyes until i heard and saw it with my own eyes 2 days ago..i was shell-shocked..i am speechless, totally disappointed...time and time again, i told myself to forgive and forget, yet time and time again, this person will come up with something to disappoint and hurt me..its really time to put a stop to it.. guess what..now, this person is definitely out of my life..and like i said yesterday, i will live with no regrets...
what an interesting day...
i still miss my handphone..
6:37 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
had a great fun with mw todae..and i really mean hell lots of fun..
met up to study..then arcade..
that guy is really good in tennis..must thrash him next time..must train harder..haha..
the best part was the Daytona, wow lau.. for the 1st time, i went into the pit stop!! what the hell!! i never know such a thing even exist until i personally experienced it today!!! by the time i went out of the pit stop, guess what? TIME UP!! wow lau..mw cannot drive la, cant even pass the extension time..hai..haha..joking joking..but it was hell lots of fun..really..
went back home for a while and then disaster struck..wow lau..wat rotten luck, i was washing my face when i suddenly felt an inch in my eye, then out of natural instinct, i went to rub, and guess what happened? my contact lense is gone..i tried seraching for it..but it was of no use..sianz...must go make another pair of permanent liao..sianz.had no choice but to get a monthly one first..wat rotten luck..
met up with mw again at abt 4.30..
studied at BK, while mw was constantly eyeing on this "angel", haha..that guy is crazy la..wassup with all the "tian shi" haha...anw, had this Grilled Chicken salad for dinner..the chicken was ok..but the best part was the vegetables..haha..they just taste great..
from BK, we moved on to Mac to finish our study..went home abt 8.30pm like that..
wat a day man.. it was indeed a day well spent..
hell yeah..
anw, was chatting with mw online just now, hai..yes, its MW again..haha..this bro of mine is really a great buddy..we just seem to click so well..haha..think today can declared MW day liao la..haha
this person cannot make it, this person has no moral values, this person made me felt disgusted, this person is gone..to a far far place where my mind could not and will not bother to reach..
11:50 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
recived a sms from mw this morning to study, i agreed to it but in the end ended up playing initial D at lot 1..haha..he played a while but most of the time, he was watching me racing, really felt sorrie abt that..finished gaming at abt 12.20..then off we went for bukit batok Mac for studying...studied for an hr..then, its was talking crap again..haha..went to the toilet again and the sight of the hand drying machine just made me burst into laughter..really CMI..haha...
after studying, off we went to watson's to buy the colour spray..wow lau..extremely dramatic...
bought this spray, after recommendation from this salesman, then merrily i went into the washroom to spray..i spray almost half of the it and guess wat? my hair is still black!! wow lau..lame shit..i could not stand it anymore and went to ask that guy why..initially, he was astonished after hearing my story and upon realising that my hair is still black..then he tried to come up with some lame excuses saying that the spray was used for turning light-coloured into dark coloured only, which is true, but i mean, if u know it earlier, why on earth didnt u tell me earlier? ridiculous..the most irritating part was it when he told me to buy a permanent dye, dye my hair into a light colour, then used the spray to change it to dark brown..i was like..ya rite...smart suggestion..how clever can u get?? lame piece of s**t..
oh ya, and the worst part was it he told me it was an expensive lesson learnt..wow lau..i mean, u were at fault and there u are telling me all these crap..come on..i am not going to complain abt him and ask him to pay the thing for me, but just where on earth does ur integriy go? hai...these ppl..
arcade with mw for a while b4 he met his girl to celebrate his birthday..
an enjoyable day until i went home..
got a call from friend telling me something that really pissed me off..and i really mean it..but at least i finally..and i really do mean FINALLY, seen the true colour of this person...why on earth is ur ego so big? why on earth do u think that everybody is living in the world for u? i dont know..and frankly, i dont wish to know..anw this chapter has to be closed..
a painful experience but a good lesson learnt..this is then a real good lesson...
haha...
anw, hope mw will like my birthday present..and have a happy 18th birthday..haha..enjoy...
7:36 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch my heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just becuase it was with them. They're the people I can share my secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. We are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. We are tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life. well, i was listening to "Our Story" by Tension and suddenly all these things just flashed through my mind..frankly, was damn touched by the song..it just bring back everything..esp what had happened throughout the past 2 years..the friendship, the love, the ups and downs..but definitely, wat had touched me the most was when i recalled the friendship i had fostered during the past 2 year, its really something that i cant forget..and i wil never forget..these 2 years may not be smooth going for me, but the memories that i shared with my buddies are surely worth recollecting and remembering..i will never forget wat these ppl had done for me.. i am dead serious abt it..
frankly, throughout my life in chinese high, i never felt this way..that is why, i emphasised that i had been recollecting the things that had happened for the past 2 years..i really enjoyed these ppl's company.. be it when i am outta love, or watever shit i was in, to when i was happy and overjoyed, i am so blessed to have my friends by my side...
they rock my world..
life as a JC student is coming to an end..but i am sure i will always remember the friendship that i had fostered with them..
i sincerely thank u ppl for all the ups and downs u had gone through with me..i sincere appreciated that..
True friends are the people that are there for you unconditionally. They are the people that never question you and support you no matter what the circumstances are. They are the people worth living for, and for me, these are my true friends..
, thank you for being my friend, i will never forget u ppl..no matter what...
11:10 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
here was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unchecked
Until it died in his silence
And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing SolitaireAnother day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken
And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself it's easy to pretend
She's coming back again
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire
A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying
Solitaireee
And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing SolitaireSolitaire, solitaire
9:38 PM
Friday, October 08, 2004
the "middle" man..
7:52 PM
i am da hero in green!!
10:19 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
~*Something About You*~
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there... to see you
I don't know where to dig in
I don't know how to get in there...to feel you
It's been to long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and I'm in time, I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
I never thought I would win
I never thought much about that
(It's been a long time coming)
I never stopped to begin
Thinking about the process
(It's been a long time coming)
It's been to long and I'm about to be in time for me
It's been to long and I'm in time, I'm in time
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
And I'm going to be there...
Be there... alright... alright...
I don't know where to begin
I don't know how to get out there to see you
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm Going to hold on to that
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming
I'm going to hold on to that
7:56 PM
today is thursday, yesterday was wednesday, the day b4 yesterday was tuesday..haha..crap..
but this is exactly how i am feeling now...
chiong abt 2 hrs of Initial D yesterday, and abt an hr for today..
so cool..driving in my RX-7 is simply sensational!!! though its simulation, but i still treasure my car...i will get my license immediately after the A levels, no doubt abt it..i am gonna drive a real RX-7..haha..cant wait..
anw, Singapore Idol later, who will be the next to be eliminated? let us keep our fingers crossed..heee..
hopefully it will be a good show..
time really flies..the weekend is here again...
hai...
time to "enjoy" the weekend edition of the weekend...
love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit, it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment.. and i love because i love and i love in order that i may love...
6:41 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
great way to start the week...
it just pleases me watching how Chelsea beat Liverpool last nite, well, to be frank, i was astonished!! i was astonished not because that Chelsea had beaten liverpool, (this has always been a routine in my mind, cus Liverpool is never a threat to Chelsea..), but i am shocked to see that Chelsea had only won the game by a single goal..it could have been 4 or 5 goals for Chelsea if they treasure their chances...
read the New Paper, i am pissed at the way ppl write Chelsea off, claiming that they won games by 1-0s..i am sicked and tired of that..
i admit that Chelsea's finishing needs to be improve, but the fact is that Chelsea is NOT playing defensively..there is a great difference betweem playing defensively and defending greatly...and Chelsea definitly belong to the latter...
anw, a win is a win, and we are sailing through the EPL with ease..Gunners, watch out!!!
got the letter of notification for the dates and venus for Chem and Bio practicals...
my nightmare had became reality..the place i really din want to go to take my exams..
anw, maybe its a blessing in disguise, cus by taking my exams there, i will be more motivated to do well, cus there is the place where i failed, and i will not fail twice at the same place!!!
6:51 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
just returned from "outing" with Jason and Rosz..
met up at abt noon then off we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza for studying..
the "studying' ended abt 6.30, when Rosz had to go and meet his girl at town..haha..
enjoyed his company though..heee...
anw, after which, me and Jason went to MacMaster for Lan gaming..we played starcraft, CS, Zero Hour, it was of extreme fun and excitment...plus his crapping..haha..it was simply fantastic..
went out the place at abt 11pm and went looking for Johnson and Andy and co at Mambo...
din played pool though, but the chit chatting section was enjoyable too..heee....all the "gay" topics..haha..
it was a good day indeed,
and here i am writing the blog, after completing another 10 rounds of Initial D...
hope tmr's soccer will be fun..woohhaaaa....
2:01 AM
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